Tuesday, August 2, 2016


I've been absent lately,
away from many,
but not really alone,
just not here.

Not "in the moment",
not engaging,
not giving,
but not taking.

I've been hiding,
in plain sight,
wearing bright colors,
and honestly trying to get noticed.

I've been floating around in my life,
I haven't made a plan and stuck to it in a long while,
I just go with the flow,
but then times goes faster than I want it to,
and before I know, I've been gone too long.

I've been absent lately,
and alone.

I guess I'd better get back soon.
Miss you.

Tuesday, April 28, 2015


I'm overwhelmed with thoughts and feelings about the situation in Baltimore. I can't understand why people would loot, destroy property, set fires, riot and damage their own home city as some form of protest. They are only hurting themselves. To all the innocent and law-abiding folks that live there and have to endure this chaos, my heart goes out to you. I hope this ends soon, peacefully. Please rioters, go home, be good, be respectful and stop this nonsense.

Thursday, February 12, 2015


So, as my readers may or may not know, I'm an adult. I've been an adult for many years now. However, yesterday I was the target of a bully. That's right, someone acted poorly toward me and said something that made me very uncomfortable. This person was mean to me and I didn't even know them. I made a comment on a post on facebook about a picture of a building that was posted by a preservation society. I thought it was a cool looking building and I thought that if it could be preserved by the company that began in that location and has grown to a major cooperation, it should be saved by them. That was all. I didn't make any political announcements, I didn't say anything controversial. I simply said I thought it was a cool looking building and as a fan of pop culture, historical archeology, and buildings in general there wasn't anything wrong with my saying it. Someone however decided to judge me on this one post. They have no idea who I am, what I stand for, if I'm intellectual, if I'm a nice person. They don't know me at all. But this person had the nerve to post after my post, "You are an idiot." I saw that and was deeply offended. How dare they pass this judgment on me? So, I wrote back, "That was uncalled for, untrue and mean. Why would you act like a bully?" But then I deleted the whole thread. And I know why I deleted it. I didn't want to provoke. I didn't want to "get into it" with someone that I didn't even know on a page that wasn't mine. I didn't want to stoop to this person's level, but now I'm wondering if this means that the bully won? Should I have stood up for myself? Should I have called them out for being a bully? If this little incident is bothering me so much, imagine how it feels when it happens to a child, a teenager, anyone else. We are taught to remember that people that bully are often hurting inside, confused, angry with the world and "acting out" but I looked at this person's page. This was another adult. Shouldn't they have known better? How is the world going to get any better if people can't just be nice to one another and respect each other's opinions. You don't have to agree with me that a building should be preserved but you certainly do have to be nice to me!

Friday, March 7, 2014

It smelled like shit and hot sugared donuts, like whiskey and burning rubber, and the sickeningly sweet smell of infant vomit. It was thick with ash and the smells of burst pipes and carpet burning. But what made it awful, that kind of awful that made you cover your mouth and hope you could hold your breath until you got away from the smell was knowing that there were people in that smell. And fear. You were breathing someone's frantic last moments, their panic and fear, and their aching longing for the ones they loved and the unfinished lives they were trying to save by running harder and leaping down stairs and out of windows and over bodies of others who had already lost. You were breathing those people and it was terrifying. And although you wanted to get away, you wanted to get closer. The streets were closed and the area was draped in yellow tape and only the emergency vehicles were coming and going from the area. Ground Zero. But something inside wanted to get closer. To see it nearer. You could see the sheared building tops, the raw metal reaching into the sky, the smoke that still billowed days later, and you knew it wasn't a pretty place. If it smelled like that why would you want to get closer and see the smell? Why? It was terrifying.

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This piece is an excerpt from a much longer project that I worked on for my capstone project at GMU. It was the account of my visit to New York in October of 2001. I will never forget that smell as long as I live.

Monday, February 10, 2014


For those of you who are viewing this little blog for the first time: Welcome!
I tried to add a permanent welcome paragraph to the blog that wouldn't disappear as I added new entries but I am having issues with editing the layout. And so, this blog is mostly made up of musings, poems, phrases and such that have been found on actual bar napkins. I tend to be inspired when I am out with friends in the evening, and I hardly ever have a notebook with me. As a writer, I am blessed with a muse, who comes to me and writes many of these little poems through me. I thought giving her a voice like this would be a great way to thank her. I would like to let any readers out there know that nearly everything here is a one draft creation. I usually just copy whatever I have verbatim.
 At least that is how this blog started out. I've also used it to convey my feelings on a couple of random topics, such as a feeling that the Christmas Season wasn't what I hoped it would be, how people have become rude when walking on campus, and on challenges I've faced while taking classes at GMU.
Two of the stories; A Fantastic Noise and The Little Man, were written in one sitting. They rushed right out of me, but were not written on napkins. They have been edited only for punctuation and spelling. The content is truly one draft creation.
I hope you enjoy this blog. I do welcome feedback!
Have a great day and thanks for reading!

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Holly has gone.

Holly has gone


a skip within her step

she is denying all

her past and

living for the moment

50 to go to the



a guitar upon the


lovely love and

longing more than

that little frame

can contain

a cat's whiskers


brush against her


a paper bag of love

and a train ticket

to explore

come with or come

without it will

not make Holly shout


Facing shore

but does she want to

the ocean is so big

and it loves me

the horizon beckons

it wants her

the fish are singing

while they weave between

her legs - a net

of love

of eternal life

she holds her breath

a moment

and lets it all go

and she is among

the stars


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This is just a first draft. And it was indeed written on bar napkins. And obviously inspired by a famous movie character.

The Case of the Runaway Sneaker

Written when I was Ten years old or so.

1979 maybe


            It was July 4th, 1947. It was dawn at the boy scout summer camp for ten year olds. None of the boys were up yet. Their camp leader, Mars Homes was down by the river when a noise startled her. She turned around with a jerk. Then she heard the sounds of leaves crackling!

            She hestitated to run, for she was curious. Were the boys up yet? After she was sure of herself, she got to her feet. Slowly she went towards the camp.

            She checked on the boys. Each and every one were there. Ernie was there with Sam by his side. Leroy was againest Scot's back. Then she checked on the others.

            Ten minutes later they were all dressed, except Ernie. He could need not find his sneaker. Soon there was a search party formed. Leroy took South, Ernie took East, Scott the west, and Sam was left with North. Mrs Homes stayed at camp to watch the belongings. Everybody met at camp. There was no luck among them all.

            By that time, Mrs Homes had decided to call on Mr. Roy, a great detective. So all of the scouts packed into a camp bus and off they went. When they arrived the maid was washing the windows. Mrs Homes rang the bell and in less than a minute they were in his office. Before Mrs. Homes had time to talk, Ernie had told the whole story. Mr. Roy called his one and only child inside the room. Then introduced her. Her name was Valerie. She was his helper and assistant. Her father told her to pack her bags, she was going to camp with the scouts to help solve their problem.

            When they arrived at camp Mrs. Homes told the boys her name and they told her their names. Mrs. Homes showed pretty Valerie where she was to sleep which was with Mrs. Homes herself. The next day she went straight to work. She dressed and eat a fast breakfast of boxed cereal with milk. The first thing she did was question Ernie. She asked him when and where he last saw his sneaker. She also asked him if there was anything valuable inside it. His answer to the valuable question was, “Yes, a ring I found on Wednesday.” Just then Leroy called from outside. “Hey Ernie, what do you say we go down to Treasure Beach?” Ernie said with a laugh that he would come if Valerie came along. So Leroy agreed. They explored for quite some time.

            When they got back to camp they were greeted. They changed and climbed into their sleeping bags. It had been a long day. Valerie was sure the problem would be solved.

            Now it was July 7th, 1947. Valerie was up first. She could not sleep. She was trying to think. What should she do next? She was puzzled. She would call her father. She quickly dressed and was on her way. She went to the nearest phone booth and called. His advice was to go to town and turn left, go three blocks and turn into a dirt road which would bring her to Treasure Beach. He also told her to bring a map which he had put into her bag. She was told to go to a point marked X. There she would find a cabin where “Mad Man Tom” lived. When she arrived at camp they were all up. She told them what she had done. Then went on her way with the map in her hand. When she arrived at the cabin she shook with fright. There was an old broken bench in front. The windows were smashed to pieces. She knocked at the half rotten door. “Hello in there!” she shrieked. She hestitated but slowly opened the door. Inside was a mean looking man.