I've done all this and still....

I've taken some broad strokes at life, I've made some tiny masterpieces, I've colored my world rose by wearing those glasses, I've been blinded by love, I've been shocked awake by loss, I've painted memories to look different in my mind, I've added color to gray days, I've glossed over my mistakes, I've muted the sunshine with my cloudy feelings, I've turned black into red. I've collaborated, I've done solo shows, I've been part of groups, seminars, classes, I've been to the school of love and the school of loss. I've looked at beauty and not recognized it, I've seen something pretty in a drab, dark space, I've done all this and still....